The Unabridged Edition of a Boy's Life In Words

2012-02-07T17:21:00.003+08:00

Who Am I by Casting Crowns

This is an old song that I've had the previlege of hearing my friend performing years back.

But till now, I am still very much encouraged by this song.

It serve as a reminder that it is never about who we are, what we can do. It is really about who He is. We are sometimes too busy making ourselves the centre of the attention. Focusing on all the wrong things - I, me and myself - and sometimes we forget it is never us, but always Him.

There is nothing that we do can make Him love us less. He has given us His all.

He is our Abba Father, He is our loving God. Likewise, love Him as He did you.

For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, “Abba, Father.” - Romans 8:15 (NKJV)

Have a fantastic week!

Mis-Communication.

2012-02-03T14:13:00.003+08:00

Communication. That's a big word.

Not because it is a difficult word to understand but because the concept of communication is really overwhelming for me. This is a personal opinion - and this post is by no means an appeal for you to subscribe to it.

When you think you can communicate to someone at the same wavelength and frequency, you often have no problem doing so. You try to say the words you mean and mean the words you say. I try to do this fairly often but as the universe likes it - No, never. You shall never be understood.

Your words are then miscontrued, misunderstood and mistaken.

Sometimes I have no idea what else to say so I just sigh, and try to take it from there.

Maybe this is why I like this web site so much...

Go read it - it's hilarious! Not to mention, so so true...

2012-01-25T19:08:00.007+08:00

This Chinese New Year...

Another New Year is here (this time, the Chinese variety!) :)

After all the merriment with the abundance of food, never ending conversations and free cable TV programs (courtesy of Starhub)... I thank God for all my loved ones and friends.

Chinese New Year is always the time when families are the most united. We go through the thick and thin of the Reunion Dinners, the Spring Cleaning and the purchasing of all things new. Then there is all the entertaining of guests, and the countless visitations. But I guess the togetherness is where all the fun is for me this CNY.

Some highlights...

Photos by me, on Instagram

I am also thankful for my friends who stays in the Far East (Pasir Ris) to the Wild Wild West (Pioneer), that they bothered to come down to Ang Mo Kio to celebrate.

We also have a guest from Poland with us on Chu Yi!

An ol'adage of what constitutes a celebration - To "Eat, drink, and be merry."

Those we did. And we also took group photos.

Racial Harmony on CNY. Accomplished.

This year, I pray that my family will be closer than ever. I also pray for God's (aka Shang Di!) blessings to be on us all. A year abundant of good health, prosperity and love for one another.

I shall sign off with a Chinese greeting for the Year of the Dragon from me to all.

龍馬精神，生意兴“龍”，“龍”众歡喜! 大家龍年行大運！

2012. A New Year

2012-01-25T17:43:00.006+08:00

Unknowingly, it has been a month into the new year and I am really thankful for what God has done in my life so far. Well, of course it is not as if I have achieved all my resolutions for 2012. But imagine that!

In the new year, I am thankful that I feel closer to God. I missed the time where I feel goosebumps after goosebumps everytime I lift my hands to worship Him. I missed the time tearing in the presence of God because His goodness is so true to me. I missed the time where I would study the bible and hold onto the promises of God. I seemed to have forgotten all of that previously. Like Martha, I have been serving tirelessly weekend after weekend - like a hamster running on my wheel. Ministry is a good thing but sitting at the feet of Christ and worshipping is just as important. It allows us to find the true meaning of our belief; to worship in spirit and in truth.

As I begin to worship (sometimes in front of a Youtube video) and read the bible, I feel so blessed to know that God has not forsaken me. I feel so thankful that for all the times that I have been faithless, He has been faithful to me. I feel so honoured that I serve the God who honours all His words and promises for us.

I am not going to preach today but I would just like to share the verse of the season for me:-

Psalm 27 (captured and uploaded previously on my Instagram)

The verse that touched me most in the passage is verse 13.

Personally, I am going through one of the most trying seasons in my life and this verse started to pop up to me. And it was reiterated so many times in church, and in books, etc. I cannot but be reminded of it every time! I am clinging onto it - no matter what!

In 2012, I will not lose heart. In 2012, I will believe.

In 2012, I will believe that God will hold onto His promises.

That I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.

It is in THIS lifetime. He has come to give me life more everlasting, not only after we've departed but it is while we are still living! Everyday, we will live from glory to glory - because it is His purpose for us! Amen.

I hope all of us can be closer to our beliefs this year. I proudly declare that my belief is in God, and Him alone.

Brian Littrell's In Christ Alone.

2011-10-10T22:50:00.003+08:00

A friend is looking for alternative music for her wedding playlist.

Problem is, there are hardly any uplifting, love songs in the genre.

Help?

2011-09-12T21:17:00.000+08:00

I cry out to You,

I pray unto You...

I love You

2011-07-31T16:41:00.006+08:00

Wickedly Funny Movie

Met up with two ex-schoolmates to catch this movie at midnight. I thought it was just another fluffy chick flick that ends with a happily ever after, in contrast with the current lineup of thrillers - the dark Harry Potter 7 part 2, the action galore Transformers, and superhero movie, Captain America.

I watched the abovementioned movies in July but hell, my favourite (in terms of the movie's ability to entertain) has got to be this one.

Why?

Because it is so wickedly funny. It's not just the "HAHAHA, LOL, oh what a funny line!" kind of movie. Some scenes actually had me hold on to my sides because they were hurting from all that laughter. Admittedly, I was laughing because of how ridiculous it was. But really, the Saturday Night Live cast do have the abilities to make you laugh without even trying.

The story could be more concise without wasting too much of the viewers' time (the movie is a hefty 124 minutes!) The themes of the story is really simple - how a best friend tries her best to plan a perfect wedding for a friend even though she has much to sort out in her own life. There were a few filler scenes that were not really helping the story much. But who knows, perhaps the producers feared the safety of the audience because of the numerous side-splitting scenes.

I give this movie 2.5/5 stars for story but 4/5 for entertainment value (in a comedy).

Watch it if you would like a great laugh and not having to deal with anything excessively serious.

2011-06-11T13:10:00.002+08:00

SATURDAY

It's noon and I'm serving at Jurong West later.

I feel like driving there. But no, I can't - cause it's raining so badly.

Never gonna drive in the rain with a faulty wiper again. (Hahaha)

Gotta send it for servicing soon.

Good weekend, everyone! =)

2011-06-10T23:11:00.004+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS

to mah homie,

SHAUN TAY L.J.

for officially becoming an

OCCIFER CADET

in the

Singapore Armed Forces.

Proud of you, my bra.

2011-06-10T23:07:00.003+08:00

Driving Milestone #2

Went on the expressways.

AMK->TOWN->CCK

Driving Milestone #3

Drove in a heavy downpour with a dirty window

and faulty wipers.

LOL. It will get interesting from here on...

2011-06-07T22:55:00.004+08:00

Sunday - the day where your heart palpitates for prawns.

We had a steamboat dinner on Sunday at Joanna's.

There were LOTS of food - here is how the menu looks like...

Starters

Baked Mushroom

Mushroom. Cream Cheese. Salami. Cheese. Pepper. Enough said.

Homemade Chicken Nuggets

Chicken nuggets lovingly made by hand, using the freshest ingredients with zero fat.

Healthy, tasty thing!

Mains

Steamboat

We had prawns, sliced beef, meatballs, more meatballs, cabbage, wantons,

MAMA Instant noodles... and more. Yum.

Cereal Prawns

I can eat this everyday and not get sick of it...

(Someone please restrain me if that happens)

No dessert. Because we were too full.

Nothing beats spending quality time with the people you love most. We spent Sunday soaking up one another's awesomeness over food and wine. And some really interesting TV shows that involve removal of excess skin and the gory image of a nipple being sandwiched between some cotton gauze........

It wasn't a special occasion but it was special nonetheless. I appreciate y'all, my friends. Really, each one of you are a rare thing to find, but I am glad to have found you.

2011-06-07T22:41:00.002+08:00

Driving Milestone #1

Drove thru the McDonalds' Drive Thru at Ang Mo Kio Park

2011-06-05T12:01:00.003+08:00

Friend "How was your week?"

Me "Same lor."

So tired of saying the same thing over and over again, every single week.

----

Really, I've run out of places that I want to visit. That was until... yesterday.

After church, not wanting to feel like the weekend was gonna be boring, we went to have dinner at The Pier at Robertson. There were many restaurants and bars and it looks like THE place to chill over a pint of beer (or two... or three?) and food over the weekend. Will definitely visit again...

Thanks to Shaun's unending natter about Brussels Sprouts, we went just there for dinner.

Mussels, free flow fries, cheap beer (Happy Hour ends at 8pm) and other awesome dishes...

I'm a convert, at my first visit.

The mussels weren't fantastic but they were good enough. Prepared with herbs, butter, onions, garlic and wine/beer/other goodies, they were nice enough for a few pops. (Would love to try the other mains one day... They look delicious on photos!)

The Fries were refillable to no end - makes me wonder how much potatoes they fry in a weekend. We also had the Brussels Wings, which were very decent.

They remind me of Popeye's Chicken - and you know that says something...

Sorry for the lack of pictures - because NSFs don't have iPhones with fancy apps.

I will myself to do something different this week. And I need to try on the family car since the sister is overseas!

HA. HA. HA. Pls beware all road users (although I am fairly confident with driving with no problems...)

2011-05-19T23:05:00.001+08:00

Nothing in this world is fair and square
Nothing in this world makes anymore sense.
---

A Blur

Nothing I've done deserved that doubt you have in your eyes. You can't see wrong from right.
Nothing I've done should be reciprocated in that way.
Nothing I did was disrespectful - it seems like we don't see it in the same light.
Nothing I've done could make you react like you did today.

I understand the need to shield your employees, defend them, fight for them,
But that doesn't make You any more the fairer, anymore competent.
I understand the anger but I don't understand the surge of emotion,
Even the lowliest of servants do not deserve such treatment.

Judge me for all you want, you may dispose of me, I don't mind,
But judge your judgments, they are indeed judgmental.
I can no longer withstand such injustice. Do away with it,
For a sound mind is what you need. Just don't get sentimental

When talents unappreciated leave, when hearts that feel no love cleave.

The injustice! Oh goodness!

2011-05-15T10:14:00.004+08:00

Normal?

Haven't written anything here in ages.

Things were just normal these days. Too normal, I feel.

It came to such a point that I feel like I was just living each day on auto-mode. Which isn't really living, actually. I have that same cup of kopi-c-kosong, 大杯的. I eat the same ham and cheese toast from the same stall almost everyday. When in office, I see the same sort of people, who have almost the same diagnoses (asthma, allergic to dust, scoliosis, all that nonsense). I take the same bus home, with the same people. You know what I mean. Same, same, same, same - they sound almost vulgar when so many of them are used in the same sentence.

Thank goodness for this one abnormality, which happened during the Easter weekend. The long weekend was spent in the Arts House for SAJC Drama Club's 2011 production, The Diary of the Madwoman.

Initially, I was only involved in the design of the posters (see above), programmes, tickets, et cetera. But somehow it progressed to the front of house, painting masks with Vicky and pseudo-directing the masked actors.

Don't get me wrong. I didn't hate it. In fact, I loved the time that I was there - being busy and panicky over the smallest details. It was real good fun and reminded me of the days in theatre while we were still in J2, when we did The Love of Three Oranges.

I remember getting coffee at Raffles City Starbucks, getting lunch at Funan the IT Mall, surrendering (and not surrendering) our mobile phones to Miss Kotwani. Talking nonsense with the cast and crew. Getting f***ed by Miss K over 'creative inputs'. And Sunday afternoon Soup Spoon before the finale. Oh good times...

As Ms K would say, there is something magical about theatre and boy, there was! I did not understand the play during the first rehearsal - at all. It was rather bad actually. But through the fire, the drama club brought forth gold. They made changes and adjusted themselves. They took the notes to heart and gave their best. They were progressively better during the rehearsals and at the end of it, the delivered rather good performances in the last few sessions. All these in the span of 2 short days. The magic is not in making fame or standing out. The magic was in how the littlest elements, from the cast, the sounds, the lights, even the audience come together in the show.

As a tradition, the members were asked to contribute a quote in relation to the theme of the production. Ours was about "happiness" and this one was "insanity". In lazi-and-can't-be-botheredness, my quote was "Why would you want to be normal?" which didn't mean much to me at first. But through these few months in NS, now that I've gotten used to all the processes and workflow, it dawned upon me - really - why would you want to be normal?

Which is why I don't get it when people can sit there in office, getting comfortable - and almost accepting the system that is inherently screwed up. The system where everyday, we put on a show in exchange for approval and praises from the superiors, from the pre-enlistees. It's almost disturbing. And the slackers - who can't be bothered about anything and think that they are riding on a cloud of invincibility they are so cool they don't have to work. It's real confusing. Yes, it is the norm, but is that normal? Is it normal to feel like you're set, prepared for life, when you have that kind of attitude?

I would choose, any day, to do the crazy amount of things that I did during the drama production. All that unpredictable sequence of events than to be comfortable in the office, sitting in the aircon and breathing the stale air of dander, pretense and lack of enthusiasm.

Normalcy is getting too comfortable in your current state. Normalcy is not having the energy to break out of the mould. Normalcy is the antithesis of creativity and imagination.

Normal is the new psychotic. Insanity is super sanity.

2011-04-04T00:10:00.000+08:00

No work this monday as it is a public holiday!

But really, WHO AM I KIDDING?

2011-02-15T02:48:00.002+08:00

Such is Love..?

They always say, when you love a person, you love them for who they are.

It's easy - if they love you back, but what if they don't love you the same way?

I thought about it and I love him/her all the same.

Love is not reserved to the person who says 'yes'. You love the person even when they say 'no' too.

2011-01-27T21:25:00.006+08:00

I've never heard of Outlier. I've never heard of Feit.

But when they come together, the result is this...

The visual orgasm above cost AUD$260... =(

Preorder for me here, please? Somebody? =)

2011-01-04T23:43:00.010+08:00

Dream... dream... dream...

I pray for these to come true. Gotta start doing something about it.

Parsons The New School for Design, New York

Ringling College of Art and Design, Florida

Academy of Art University, San Francisco

2010-12-08T22:44:00.001+08:00

Did you know?

That Every Singaporean Son has 18 miniepisodes?

Did you know?

That Every Singaporean Son features that Aiyo, aiyo, aiaiaiyo song before every episode?

Did you know?

That it is freaking suicidal to watch it from 8 am to 5 pm everyday starting today?

IT IS SO ANNOYING I FEEL LIKE I KNOW ALL THE RECRUITS PERSONALLY FROM THAT COMPANY/PLATOON/SECTION/ETC NOW.

Morale was zero. Now, it is sub 100.

2010-11-25T23:56:00.002+08:00

AM - A WO told me to cut my hair. He also told me that I look like I am from a gang because I have longer hair than the rest and because I spilled coffee and wants to report me for 'high tea' at Cantonment (Police HQ Thing). Freaking stupid. Despite the fact that it was a joke, I felt really insulted. This is a person who goes around going "KNN... etc, etc" - Is he suggesting that I am at his level?

PM - There is a Meet-The-People Session going on at the PAP near my block. So tempted to go complain and claim abuse even though it IS very unreasonable to do so over such a small matter. I guess idiots like him make me very irrational.

What's up with people in No.4 and their brains?!

Maybe IF I REALLY DID, these people will learn to shut their gap.

A Poem

2010-11-20T00:29:00.007+08:00

Do you hear me?

Do you see my writings?

Do you feel me?

Sometimes I feel like I'm invisible

Whatever I say, write, or feel,

How is it that they can mean nothing to you?

I scream but you do not hear,

I write but with a blunt pencil,

I long for you but in arrythmia, an organised chaos.

Do you not hear them voices, calling out your name?

Do you not see the words, that are meant for you alone?

Do you not feel my heart, tugging for you and only you?

You, yes, you

I want your attention

It's why I call for you.

You, yes, you

I want you to read me

Like a book, from the prologue to the afterthought,

Because I want to bare my soul to you.

You, yes! You!

Feel me - from my very being

Missing you.

"My Rubbish Complaints"

at 1am in the morning.

Saturday, 20 November 2010

The "Best" of Teoh Beng Hock's Inquest

2010-10-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

You've got to watch THIS

I cannot comprehend how this lawyer got his license to practise.

I cannot comprehend how he has the cheek to question other people's expertise...

Oh my lord. Court Comedy at its best!

2010-10-07T22:43:00.002+08:00

I like it how *some* Singaporeans criticise everything about a certain Singaporean leader and never fail to have something bad to say about him can become so emotional and filled with sadness of his wife's passing.

It's sad how they treat it like some event. Because all my friends are going like "RIP" and "You are missed" on facebook, I should do it too! If I don't do it, it would seem as if I am not up to date with my 'current affairs'. Ought to be better than that, no?

Singaporeans = Either Super Two-faced or Super Jump-On-The-Bandwagon? You tell me.

In all due respect, the author is sorry for the leader's wife passing and thinks that the love they shared was real. The support she has for her husband is admirable. RIP.

2010-09-26T23:40:00.004+08:00

Today

Would just like to post this before the day ends as it was a rather important day for me.

I love how I'm feeling right now.

A little excited, looking forward to the future and how it feels like there is zero limit.

Like everything has been made right...

A good friend, J, agreed to come to church.

One of my best friends, B, came to church today too.

And so I attended service with some of my favourite people.

It kind of felt like how we were in the past. Just soaking in each other's presence, appreciating each other and the fact that God has brought us together.

I love this feeling. Of openness, with nothing to hide. Nothing to fear.

And the possibility of the various people being back in church, loving God and living life.

Everything felt right today.

I don't know if this will last, but I sure hope it does. I wish for the day that we can be in the same cell group, sitting in service together. Serving God with a higher purpose.

That, and PK broke the news about the change in the church's leadership.

Dr Bernard preached about Watching and Praying.

BK told us about the new fellowship initiative.

Everything just seems to fall into place despite all that has happened.

God seemed to have given me an answer for my prayers too.

And during worship, all these things just overwhelmed me. I was reminded of how blessed I was and how grateful I am about it.

I broke down, crying. For the first time in years. It felt like my heart has smashed into pieces and everything is being lifted up to God. And everything is going to be alright.

It all felt right. =)

2010-09-18T21:52:00.003+08:00

I am a WORKAHOLIC.

Maybe it's self-proclaimed. Maybe not.
But today I saw the workaholic in me slowly creeping up and overcome the slacker that I appear to be.

Usually, at work. I like to be the 'chill' one. Never worrying about stuff. Never ganchiong about doing it all within 5 minutes. My working attitude is usually like you can make mistakes. Big, or small, it doesn't matter. As long as you can correct it, it will be just fine.

And I'll be alright if work is put on hold. "Do it tomorrow. It'd be OKAY. Seriously..." As long as it gets done. Right? I would so love to print all those documents all at once. Like a monthly, okay maybe not... Or a weekly affair? Doing it daily simply puts me off.
Never mind that.

But today, I discovered that I actually CARE about what I do.
Haha, in a very strange way. Today was a busy busy busy busy day.
So busy that I didn't have time to go to the toilet. Or to go around talking to people. The whole day was just spent booking ALL the appointments and clearing files so that our 'customers' would just get the hell out of my sight, along with their stupid files. (See how I am impacting the world....?) I just couldn't wait to get off work at 5... sharp.

But then there were the backend of the things that one have to exhaustively do, daily. That I shall not even attempt to comment about. In my point of view, all these things (aka Saikang), mean nothing to me except that it sucks away all the energy and life away from this tired body and mind. Because it is mostly administrative in nature. And I think I have told people how much I HATE doing admin stuff. But today, the duties were overflowing and people couldn't finish their work in time (and I was still struggling with OTHER admin duties - haha, see I was that chill). Oh, I should mention, that I didn't manage to finish all my work yet.

I have this secret feeling that it was my fault that I gave them their "duties"too late. But there was just a million and one things I have to deal with earlier today. Contractors, Chief Clerk, Asst Chief Clerk, Phone calls, emails, Questions, Answers, Parents, Pre-ens, etc, etc. Basically I have to deal with a lot of people. Even though sometimes I don't know how to - nor do I like to. Sometimes, it's not even my responsibility!!! Anyway, so I felt a little guilty. And seeing that I'll not be in office for the first two days... I decided to finish all of the leftovers, as much as possible.

At first, I only intended to finish like a few pages... but I ended up doing most of the duties at the end of the night. And boy, was it taxing! As I picked up the papers, I can't help but to reflect on how miserable it is to being doing all these things OVERTIME, without extra pay. Haha. Didn't take me very long. But it was at least a good one hour. It was my first time going home at 6 on a Friday. TGIF yeah? Haha

But I was glad that I did. If not I will never ever get over it.
And maybe this inane happiness could be attributed to the lack of noise while I stayed back alone. Above and beyond that I did other things like update some other documents and the roster board. It was so crazy I couldn't believe myself.

I was alone, and I liked it. It may be tiring, or even exhausting, but I enjoyed doing all those stuff in the comfort of good company - that is, myself.

Maybe I'm sort of a workaholic afterall...

2010-09-13T23:01:00.003+08:00

Creativity.

What does it even mean?

10 alphabets but it's such a huge word. Such an unattainable ideal.

Many will say, "Creativity is thinking out of the box!"

I say, "What a load of bullshit."

Firstly, that is a really lame answer because it's such a cliche. It's tiresome to listen to people telling you "Oh, you have to think out of the box!" That is not a creative way in giving the answer. Therefore, it is actually kind of ironic, ain't it?

Secondly, when you 'think out of the box', you usually end up thinking 'What will the person think about this?' And that is a classic case of 'boxing' up your ideas!

We have so much to consider...

Consider this list - Gender, sexuality, race, language, religion, etc, etc. Because people take themselves too seriously to be able to see a creative idea as itself. They get hypersensitive as if the idea is set to attack, to mock, to criticise them.

Let's not get to the debate that will happen after.

Sigh.

Right now, I am just trying to get my portfolio done to apply for art school. But it is just so frustrating. Because I have to do it according to what people want to see. And best of all, I DO NOT KNOW.

And because of the lack of background, I don't know if I should paint, sketch, make videos, take photographs or do what I like best, to simply graphic design.

I can imagine this board of lecturers just looking at your work and going "Oh, I love this." "Nah, that's an old technique." "This is nothing fresh!", etc... Which is absolutely thought-limiting. The image is one of a bunch of people killing creativity, smashing it to smithereens.

They themselves probably could not pinpoint what they are looking out for apart from the vague "potential in the student" and "the process of translating ideas into artwork". So who actually decides?

Some nights, I think it to be SOOOO tiring. Sometime I think I should just give up and get a degree in Business or Communications or something. Maybe History, Literature - or even MATHEMATICS (I am just kidding - not that mad, yet)? But I know I will be feeling so miserable. Like I've plunged into something not because I want to, but simply because I can, all over again.

I do have confidence in myself and my works. But currently, I feel that it is just not enough.

I try and I try. I want to succeed. I want to MAKE IT WORK. But sometimes it just feels so hard. I really pray that everything will turn out well. That I can fulfill this little dream of mine.

Something I've held on to since I was 14.

Maybe I just need some encouragement. Or some praises even.

Maybe I just need to boost my deflating ego. So that I can feel better about myself.

It seems so childish. But so absolutely essential?

Sometimes it feels like I expect too much of myself.

I am not going to let it slip away. Nor am I going to give up. For I know I would kick myself if I don't do this. Please, pray with me. That I will get the determination, the right guidance, and fall on the right track that will lead me to this path that seems long, winding, and oh so hard.

But I know that amidst all these, the success will be sweet. And I will savour every bit of it.

I don't know, will Someone please help?

2010-07-18T16:23:00.002+08:00

Someone please help me to tell my father to keep quiet when watching action movies.

Please.

2010-07-17T23:41:00.003+08:00

Wavin' Flag by K'naan

I'm sure many people would have heard of the song, Wavin' Flag, due to the World Cup fever. And also because of its real catchy tune.

Today, I stumbled upon what is supposedly the original version of the song penned by K'naan and it just leaves a trace of sadness in my heart. The lyrics bares it all. So do take time and click on the video and listen to it. I do hope the nation will be stronger, and be like a Wavin' Flag.

When i get older i will be stronger
They'll call me freedom
Just like a wavin flag

When i get older
I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom
Just like a waving flag
And then it goes back (x3)
Ahhho Ahhho Ahhho

Born to a throne
Stronger than rome
But violent-prone
Poor people zone
But it's my home
All I have known
Where I got grown
Streets we would roam

Out of the darkness
I came the farthest
Among the hardest survive-o
Learn form these streets
It can be bleak
Accept no defeet
Surrender retreat
(so we struggling)
Fighting to eat
(and we wondering)
When we will be free
So we patiently wait
For that faithful day
It's not far away
But for now we say

When I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom
Just like a waving flag
And then it goes back (x3)

Ahhho ahhho ahhho

So many wars
Settling scores
Bring us promises
Leaving us poor
I heard them say
Love is the way
Love is the answer
That's what they say

But look how they treat us
Make us believers
We fight theIr battes
Then they deceive us
Try to control us
They couldn't hold us

Cause we just move forward
Like buffalo soldiers
(but we strugglin)
Fighting to eat
(And we wonderingg)
When we will be free
So we patiently wait
For that faithful day
It's not far away
But for now we say

When i get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom
Just like a waving flag
And then it goes back (x3)

And then it goes when I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom
Just like a wavin flag
And then it goes back (3x)
Ahhhooo ahhhoooo ahhhooo

And everybody will be singing it
And you and i will be singing it
And we all will be singing it
Wo wah wo ah wo ah

When i get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom
Just like a waving flag
And then it goes back (x3)

And then it goes when i get older i will be stronger
They'll call me freedom
Just like a wavin flag
And then it goes back (3x)
A oh a oh a oh

When i get older
When i get older
I will be stronger

Just like a wavin flag (3x)
Flag flag
Just like a wavin flag

P.S. Wants to visit South Africa.

2010-07-11T19:32:00.016+08:00

Sauntering Saturdays

Yesterday, was an anomaly of what I would expect of my Saturday, the first rest day from an entire week of work. In my opinion, it should be really slow-paced and lazy. To do whatever I wish, basically.

What I would normally do first thing on a Saturday is to have my favourite kopitiam breakfast since I am stuck with food from Canteen A or Canteen B for five days of the week. But yesterday, I skipped breakfast as I had to go off to meet a friend.

Following which, would be a few hour long surfing on the Internet, or to catch up with some TV shows - HIMYM/Big Bang Theory/Glee/Big Brother, etc...

However, yesterday I went to NUS to see throngs of people taking pictures with the feature outside the cultural centre that says "I WAS HERE" and the many signages that indicated the event, COMMENCEMENT 2010. Yes, I am wondering why NUS is loud in that way. ALL CAPS and their colours are really really bright. Doesn't really reflect most of their student population tho. (Hahaha)

Anyway, CONGRATULATIONS to Darice for graduating! Say goodbye to NUS and its science faculty with buildings that looked like they were gonna collapse. Someone look so happy, but you should be happy!

Sidenote - Picture without logo (Left) costs $12. Picture with logo (Right) costs $15. HAHA.

I would go on and on with borders and stuff, but it's late...

Then maybe I would go shopping, for groceries, clothes, etc. Go out for lunch and all that kind of thing near my place because nobody should bother to dress up on their rest day or lepak day as I would call it. Yesterday, I went from NUS to town to VivoCity as I had to meet Shaun for lunch. We went to Japanese Gourmet Town for Ramen (eugh). At the 'town', the staff were speaking Japanese and greeting every single customer and they had Japanese songs playing in the background. Did you know that there was a Japanese version of the song, Tong Hua? Mildly amusing, rather nauseating... So it was kind of like a pseudo-Japanese overdose over there.

Walked past this place that sells tarts at Vivo. It's kind of new. And the amount of fruits that they use on a slice of tart is AMAZING. The fruits were sliced and stacked high that the full tart looked like a dome. We decided to go check it out. Presentation aside, the tart was excellent. The custard was rather light and it comes with fruit sauces which were pretty nice. The place also boomed Japanese songs (OD, to the mux!) but it was in general a much better place to chill as compared to the "Town" earlier.

By most Saturday evenings, I would have prepared to go home so that I could sleep and wake up early. But not this one, I met Cheney after what seemed like 1 hour of wandering around Vivo, and then spent another hour there before meeting Erica and Sandhya to go to Sandhya's place for her party. Was feeling really tired at this point already.

But of course, San's place was really nice. I like how everything was done in great style. And it feels very spacious because of the minimalistic furnitures. I think her mom is a woman of perfection who makes sure every detail is taken care of. And she was really nice, no different from the first time I met her. She even allowed us all to skip school for one day so that we could just chill out and study at her place that day. Ha. There was awesome food at the party - spaghetti, north indian fare, all things good. There was sheesha as well but there was a little soot in it, bleah. But vely nice.

I am a little sad that Sandhya is going to leave. She was one of the most precious friends I have made in school. I remember the first time I saw her, she looked like she was on dope. Her mad hair, and her crazy huge eyes. Sometimes, she looked the kind who would mumble to herself on a regular basis. But I've obviously never talked to her until Drama in the second year.

She was positively mad. In a good way. And we clicked off immediately (at least that's how I recall). I truly enjoyed all the times we shared in the last year of JC. During drama, after drama, trying to study Literature and History together. Going for consultations after consultations with Miss K and Mrs Tan. And getting so stressed about the whole A Level thing.

I am so glad it was all over, and that she is going to pursue Lit in Australia. But of course, it seems like the break was gone all too soon.

I thank God for bringing back people who are dear to me back here in Singapore.

Shaun is back. Erica is back. Sandhya's still here (only until Tuesday tho).

But I hope it won't be too soon before Erica is leaving (in August), Darice (for Aussie in Jan) Shaun (probably tottering someplace else after NS). And I will most probably be leaving for school after NS too. Although it may not be so soon - but I am already kind of worrying a lot about it already. Exciting times are ahead of us, but goodbyes are always the hardest to say.

I can only pray and hope that everyone will be safe and sound, and excelling in everything they do. Everyone, keep on keeping on!!

2010-07-05T20:50:00.008+08:00

Meandering Mondays

This Monday certainly stood out among the rest.

What I thought would be yet-another-Monday that would be dimmed by the blues, it turned out to be really fine!

First, everyone (okay, maybe except a few) was in a pretty good mood. I really thank God for that; it only makes work more bearable. Because seriously, it IS the same old shit every single day.

Maybe something else accounted for my good mood...

In the morning, as I was trudging towards the Centre from the side gate, I saw the vehicles that were damned by the fallen tree at the parade square on Friday. It ominously made me feel happier. Heh. I was laughing to myself as I walked past it... I hoped that I had a camera to capture that. But of course, I didn't have a camera because I am not allowed to bring one into camp. =(

The trudges lightened up and slowly progressed to become almost-skips (Ok, not really. Seriously.)

Perhaps it was the sufficient rest I had. I slept pretty early yesterday. So today the energy was through the roof! I was rather high and started to become pretty talkative. During late lunch, even M and J's incessant mutterings, which would usually get on my nerves, failed to irritate me. It must have been a miracle.

It might be because of the high energy, or the generally good feeling I had, all work was completed by 4pm sharp. I even had excess time to talk with people like Terence (about his alm0st-American Pie incident) and Weishun, Rocky Master with Junhao and Mandy. The day was made a little more wholesome on top of a job neatly done. Lol.

Oh well, I reeeaaaalllllyyyy hope that all my Mondays from now on would be as smooth as this one!

May the rest of the week get better with each day.

Come, everyone chant with me "I love my job. I love my job. I luuurrrvvveee my job."

2010-07-04T21:29:00.003+08:00

This post is a continuation from the previous post.

I have not a clue why the title of this post is a non-emotive statement.

Speaking about diarrhea (from previous post), I have a really bad case of diarrhea this past week.

Not going into details, but this one was the worst one since when I was hospitalised in Kindergarten for irritable bowels. I went to the toilet countless (yes, I do mean countless) times on Monday.

And this continued on through till Thursday. =(

Monday was just terrible for me. And it wasn't even the Monday Blues that caused it. It was work as usual until lunchtime where the stomachache started to act up. It was not too bad until I started to repeatedly head for the washroom due to the diarrhea. Nobody in the office had any stock of OTC medications like the oh-so-needed carbon pills in my case. (I happen to work in the MEDICAL Classification Centre Haha).

Battled with the tummy which felt like there was some monster in my there, squeezing it for a good 4 hours before heading back to see a doctor. Naturally, I took a cab back in case I shat in my pants. Except, the cab ride that I thought would make me more comfortable, was the greatest nightmare for a person in pain.

Firstly, the route that the driver took was full of traffic stops. And they all turned red during the journey. So there was a lot of jerking of the vehicle that took place. It made me feel like the pain has decided to multiply and move up to my head. That gave me some giddiness.

In the midst of all that, the driver kept talking nonstop. Most of his monologue didn't even make sense. He first observed that I "looked very tired" and that a lot of people are "very tired nowadays" with the World Cup and all. (I didn't even watch a single match)

Then, he asked if I was "feeling okay". I didn't, obviously. But in all that dizziness, I didn't have the strength to mouth a reply. To my horror, my lack of response prompted him to speak even more.

When we reached AMK, he couldn't understand my directions and I had to give instructions with all the pain in my stomach, head and fighting the incoming nausea. I guess my body was really acting against my will (and the cab driver at the same time), it decided to fail me in many of my vomit-free years. I barfed in the cab.

I saw streaks of orange, yellow and brown (from the milo in the morning I presume). Apart from that, the other colors made no sense whatsoever to me. What's funny (personally), is that the cab driver started to become even more vocal after the incident. He repeated the following sentences in no clear sequence...

"I just washed my cab, you know?!"

"One time wash is $20 leh."

"How come never bring plastic bag with you?"

"Aiyo, how to pick up customers like that?"

Freaking insensitive prick right? Sorry I puked on your cab, but you owe your own taxi an apology for causing the vomit. (I have very strong beliefs that his incessant mutterings and lousy driving skills made up for more than 60% why I barfed in the cab.) Hee.

Tuesday was XINMSN.COM Day. Watched the whole of Renovaid and Buffetlicious and the Noose 3. And some other TV shows that I had missed. I realised the Catch-Up TV thing there is awesome!

Felt good enough to go to work on Wednesday but the bowels didn't seem to have cleared up. I am the kind of person who is skeptical about taking medication simply because names like "Deminenhydrinate" and "Loperamide" sound evil to me. So I only took it 2 times when the stomach was aching real bad. I guess that's why the diarrhea didn't cease until the later part of the week.

Thursday was Bro-date with mah bro hailing from O'Am-erica.

Met Shaun at my workplace (!) - only because he came for checkup. Lol.

Went to Vivocity (Bad Idea). Marche and then Starbucks.

It was rather fun actually. But I guess it was the company rather the location. I still stand by my motion that there is nothing to do here in Singapore.

Friday had me deciding that I was well enough to go catch a movie with Vicky.

Except... we didn't watch a movie. Ended up trying to look for a bed to sleep on because we were so tired. We failed, just for the record. =)

Saturday. Woke up at 8.

Slept again at about 12.

All the way till 5.

And started to watch Big Brother UK. It's not exactly a nice reality TV show.

But I love observing how they live together in the House. And how the people react towards one another. Kind of like an observation of the psyche of these people.

Oh, and I love the accent. Absolutely!

There, verbal (or typewritten) diarrhea is over. I hope I can keep up with the blogging so that my posts don't get chopped up into parts, and days of the week...

Till then, Ciao! I hope no one feels sick after the post!

2010-07-04T18:45:00.005+08:00

Ahoy, ahoy!

I know, I know, it's been a really long time since I last updated this blog... With the last two posts seeing me saying hello to Shaun Tay and Tangy Goh respectively.

You didn't miss anything out. My life has been pretty much the same old thing from then till now.

Of course, there are certain things that I have felt thankful for since then. Things that have made me smile and other laugh-out-loud moments. And there's the sporadic little cringing feeling of me thinking to myself, "Oh no, I should have written/blogged/recorded that down."

I don't know what I should type here anymore. So, in all randomness, I'm going to attempt to cook up a blog entry based on loose memories and spontaneity.

Today, Darice was being a really nice friend and fetched Shaun and me to church today in her new "Poppy's Cab". It's been a long time since the three of us went crazy in her ride so it was rather nostalgic in that sense. Makes me really miss the friendship shared by the three of us. If you're reading this, I am sorry I forgot to pass you the cookies!

At church today, Dr AR Bernard preached and it was awesome! I always love his messages as he always introduces an array of new terms (try biopsychosociospiritual) that even though one may not use regularly in our daily lives, but it almost always so clearly illustrate his sermons.

Actually, I have made a mental note to NOT use that word in my twitter/facebook note because many people would either be doing that in a mindless way or watching out for people who do it. Thank God "mental note" didn't include writing it down on my blog.

He talked about how conflicts arise because of the human nature and our desires, which are not influenced by the Holy Spirit. Also, how conflicts can arise between two or more parties even though they all have the same value system. It's been a really long time since I have gotten excited over a message. I guess I have the right to scribble a little something about it here.

Hung out with Shaun and his friend, Leroy after service. Can't help but to think how uninteresting living here has become. I don't know what to do after work/service/etc anymore! I don't want to walk around the ever expanding enormous malls. Nor do I want to pay for overpriced menus and be disappointed by the food. Museums (okay, at least the ones that are FOC) have become uninspiring of late. I can't wait for something really good to come along soon...

Photo credit @ www.asiatravelguide.org

Contemplating on a short trip. To Malaysia, Thailand, wherever. Perhaps we should start getting in touch with nature soon? Dang, so hot here. Oh no.

This post is getting so long. It's like a case of typing diarrhea. So much for not knowing what to say. (I shall cut it short, read about the past week in the next post!)

2010-05-01T20:41:00.002+08:00

To Tangy Goh, my best female human Tao Geh.

Hello, you are loved, you are missed.

Haha I do love bean sprouts. Om Nom Nom.

This super dedication thing is fun. Super, because it's from me. Hee

2010-04-21T21:22:00.002+08:00

To Shaun Tay, my best male human friend.

Hello.

2010-02-21T14:09:00.003+08:00

PROSPERITY come my way.

Real prosperity is having the financial abundance to obey God's will whenever He wants you to, and however He wants you to.

Looks like I must empower myself to get wealth.

With the passing of the CNY Celebrations and upon receiving my pay, it feels good to have some money in the bank and not feel so poor this month - haha.

Of course no one would resist additional money. Moreover, I foresee 2010 to be the year of major purchases and sacrifices...

My previous post mentioned the plays/musicals I intend to watch this year.

Well, a little bird told me that Apple is most probably gonna release a new MBP and a new iPhone this year. Gotta save up for that. Not that I need the latest Mac army, but this is a good year for change I believe.

Why? Well, simply because of the fact that my iPhone has recently refused to read my SIM card, rendering itself an iTouch, albeit slightly better - it has a camera.

And my MBP who has served me for 3 long years is left with very little memory space.

Yes, it is the plain aluminium one. No black border. Sometime last year, it was upgraded with Apple's latest OS, known as the Tortoise. But I still love it. Because it has been three amazing years. I promise I will not throw it away =)

So many things. So little money.

Really need to be praying for wisdom and multitude of blessings.

Two Building Funds this year. But I believe that the desires of my heart will definitely come true. Especially after having the yusheng in church just now - it was nice. But now, I have to HUAT ARHHH!!!

2010-02-16T23:53:00.005+08:00

Looking back, studying Lit was rather fun because of the plays we get to attend (some for free!) and others for a minimal fee... I think 2010 has some up and coming productions that will make this year a good year for the theatre!

For one, Sam Mendes has a sequel to the Bridge Project, known as

THE BRIDGE PROJECT YEAR TWO - The Tempest.

Its predecessor, The Winter's Tale (2009), was rather amazing, although we didn't know the story when we watched it last year. We got in for free because it was payable through Edusave! That was really the best part. The second best part was because it was so much fun to watch... I will never forget the bear scene and all the sets which were all surprisingly simple, yet packing the punch. I am quite sure The Tempest would deliver. I want to go watch it!

Another play, Blackbird looks promising as well. Maybe it's because I like Emma Yong, but the story looks like it has got potential... And the acclaims from the various reviews kind of shaped my perception about the play too. (Yes, I am a sucker for such advertisements.)

How can I leave out CHICAGO?

Loved the movie, loved the songs, I have to see the real thing live!

This is probably the last thing my Lit teachers would want me to enjoy (for there is no need for literary analysis) but give me acting, song and dance all rolled into one and I'm onboard!!

Last but not least, there is the SAJC Drama Club annual production.

I don't know what the story is about, nor do I know who's acting in it. But as an alumni, I think I have to support it.

Sadly, all these plays and productions are so expensive (maybe with the expection of the last one). Sigh, my pay looks miserable beside all the ticket prices. But I think I will go ahead with it... Someone sponsor me, please?

2010-02-10T23:06:00.002+08:00

So I've been letting this blog hang for as long as it can (it is still hanging) without bothering about it even though there are some awesome shit going on out there...

But what I'm about to share is important, and you ought to know...

Apparently, I need glasses. Hurhur. (But I'm ignoring the advice, for now....)

The woe of working in a clinical environment. You play with some supposedly cool machine that gives you some of the weirdest news.

2010-01-21T22:23:00.002+08:00

Gamxia Serena and Darice for being my referee for clearance.

Doing (or requesting) for things at the last minute is so typicallllll.... (Trained already)

2010-01-16T11:54:00.006+08:00

Highlights from BMT.

So a breakdown of religion is needed. The Sergeant (S) calls out a religion and Recruits (R) are to raise up their hands respectively. Protagonist here is Praveen (P)

S "Buddhist?"

R *Raise their hands*

S "Hindu?"

R *Some raise their hands, P does too*

S "Christian?"

R *Christian Rs raise their hands, P raises his hand again.*

EVERYONE laughs

S "Are you Christian or are you Hindu?"

P Confidently "My father is Hindu. My mother is Christian. One Hindu, one Christian."

S Puzzled "Then what are you?"

P Both.

R BURST OUT LAUGHING

Same episode. Different protagonist - this one is a JC Kid (J) (I forgot who)

S "Hindu? Muslim? Buddhist? Christian? Freethinker? etc etc"

At this point, J did not raise up his hand at all.

S "Eh...! Who never raise up their hand?!"

J "What if i'm none of the above?"

S "That means you are Freethinker lah! Just now I ask why you never raise up your hand?!"

J "I thought I am an atheist or something"

S "Freethinker lah. None of the above mah!"

S "What JC are you from?"

J "RJ"

S "WHAT THE FUCK..."

R BURST OUT LAUGHING...

As you can see, Tekong was fun because it was hilarious. HAHAHA

2010-01-01T12:18:00.007+08:00

Goodbye 2009,

Hello 2010!

2009 has been good to me. Yes there was the stress and all that with the A's looming around the corner for most part of the year, but in 2009, I have persevered and conquered.

We are more than conquerors. And I am glad to say that I have stepped into new ground and explored myself in totally different ways - in ways that I have not imagined or thought of before. And here are some of them...

1) The A Levels.

Yes it is true. The A Levels are no joke. And it is not to be trifled with.

Though I haven't been studying very hard for it but I really really really want to do well and move on. And I am glad that I've finished most part of the race - the papers tied together and submitted.

Really thankful for the fact that I do not have to touch Math anymore (for real this time, I promise) I lift this one up to my Friend, He will see it through... Yessss.

2) Drama.

I never thought there were any acting blood in my veins until the beginning of the year. That audition really changed the way I think about myself. (Life changing much man.. hahaha)

Firstly, I can actually try to be funny.

Secondly, I can actually improvise and act (or just being silly lah).

I think being involved in Drama has boosted my confidence. I can overcome my fear of being onstage and actually feel good about myself when people actually laugh at the silly jokes and lines I had to deliver.

Really grateful of the friendships forged through this production. The Cast and Crew from the Love of Three Oranges remain a large part of this whole JC fiasco. It was a GOOD distraction from all that stress and studying. Never will I forget the rehearsals and lepak-sessions with the rest. Also, Miss K's encouragement and praise (teehee), I want to further become a "revelation" to many others...

Will I act again? Yes definitely, if the opportunity arises. This might come across as very crazy/divaish/rubbish, but I definitely enjoy being on stage, performing.

3) Taking My Stand.

I will not go into details for this one but as I took my stand for some things, I realise that I am no longer the compromising, easily influenced and "hao3 qi1 fu4" kid I was and might have been for the past few years. I think my personality is stronger this year - not entirely a bad thing even though you may hate it.

Sometimes I surprise myself - reacting a little stronger about some things. I am sorry about me being hard to get along at times but I've got to do what I've GOT to do.

Better luck next year I guess... (Teehee)

Oh about the conquering new ground thing, the last part of Year 2009 has been really a season of going into NEW grounds, literally!

Central Japan (Osaka, Kyoto, ..., Tokyo)

I love love love Nippon! The trip with the family gained me some new insights and refreshed myself entirely!

I think I could live in Japan save for the language barrier (and the really high standards of living).

For there was the lovely weather (loveliest, really!) and the focus on design, aesthetics and beauty in that place. From the way people dress up (even their version of the ah bengs - in black suits and leather boots - looked really good) to the intricate packaging in EVERY SINGLE SHOP there. Not forgetting the food.

In a nutshell, Japan was awesome and I will definitely visit again.

Taipei, Taiwan

Heavily influenced by the Japanese, Taiwan would probably be a more appropriate place to stay in. One, no language barrier. Two, cheap food, cheap clothes, everything cheap cheap. I miss the chicken cutlet and sausages and all that shizzz. o.o

Taipei is a bit dirty and less done up than Tokyo and Singapore but it is very real and comfortable and it feels rather safe there. People are very friendly and sincere over there (which is why as Torrance would say, I made many "friends" there).

Must thank Shinchee (hehe) and his family for their care when we were there. Really enjoyed myself... I will get back there someday!

Sunway Lagoon, KL, Malaysia

I know this one is like... HUH?

Haha and for the fact that I just came back from there yesterday... This one is still fresh on my mind.

Yes, it is not sophisticated and nice looking. The roads look dirty and the people are like Singaporeans - rather unfriendly and self-absorbed, in that sense.

Haha, classic case study would be the salespeople in the various shopping malls. I noticed that instead of coming FORTH to serve customers, some salespeople actually RETREAT to avoid customers....

But the trip was fantastic. Much of it owe it to the fact that the company was awesomenation.

Darice Jill Ng, Ben Wang and Jason Jiang - my lovely roomies. Haha. Ok Darice was not really a roomie but she practically is since she spent every waking moment with us. Yes, she is a boy boy.

We were so mad. From the crazy/funny/lame/rubbish jokes we crack. To the endless things to talk about. And the random noise we make (HURRRRRRRRRR) when we are together, it made the otherwise potentially-boring Sunway trip (hehe) really enjoyable for me.

Also got to know new people (JJ, Jia an) and the rest better. We might not be the bestest of friends but I will treasure however limited friendships we share and have forged.

I could be myself entirely during the whole trip - the glutton, the roller on the bed and the seriously noisy one who screams my lungs out all the time.

The trip really could have been longer.

Wo Ai Ni Men

Vicky Chen, Joshua Lok, Amirah Harith, Ilona Erika Chua

My group from school is the best. These two years with you guys have been awesome. Can't imagine SA without you guys. It would be worse than it already is. You guys are very nice (contrary to popular belief) I love you all.

Vanessa, Jorji, Tim, Aaron, and the rest of A07.

The year has been good because of all of you. Although we don't really hang out but you guys are really fun to be in as a class. Will never forget how funny you all are and Vanessa - for being always encouraging and all. Want to keep all of you as friends and classmates foreverrrrrrrrrrrrr...

Drama Kids - ERICA, SAN, KUSHI, CLIFF, CHENEY, etc etc.

You guys ROCK. It's a pity I only got to know you coolshits in Year 2. Haha You guys are always so much fun to be with. Thanks for putting up with all my nonsense and joining me in some of them. *hugs everyone* Could never wish for a different cast for TLOTO!

Tangy Goh

Hi I love you, really - more this year than the last. You always put up with my crap and all that and for being you.

You are very very talented - can design, can sing, can write, etc etc. You are officially the coolest person already. (I know now you are jumping with joy, haha) You inspire me to want to do what I want to do. Keep on keeping on, you are tougher than you think you are - I support you!!

Joanna Teo

JOTEO! thanks for trusting in me and looking out for me. And not despising me for my age. Haha you are essentially a big sister to me but more a friend than all that hierarchy crap. YOU DON'T FORGET US NOW THAT YOU HAVE JEM OK? If that happens, Tangy and me will take it upon ourselves to KILL YOU.

Laura Kee

inspiring actress, risk taker, leader, and friend. JIAYOU Laura - you can do all things!

...By extension, the entire Chorus Board Ministry because we are family.

Kenneth and Serena

T'was nice spending the last moments of 2009 with you guys. Really thankful for the both of you. Serena, you literally watched me 'grow up' and I am very grateful for discovering and polishing me into the person that I am today. Your trust in me befuddles me most of the time but this is no science and can offer no explanation. Kenneth, I really appreciate how you always try to get me involved and having a part in helping me to become who I am today. Thanks for never giving up on me, I know I am a tough nut to crack. All the best for the coming year. Your family is such a blessing to me.

Pastor CK

Thanks Pastor for your faith, love and trust in me. Serving with you is amazing and have opened my eyes to many things in the world since I was young (15?). You have never made me feel uncomfortable under your leadership and this is because of what a genuine person you are. Thanks Pastor!

Samantha and Zhihong

Heee, Congrats on your engagement. Really appreciate you guys especially Sam for your friendship. I know I haven't been the most cooperative / lovely person this year but thanks for accepting me for who I am.

Darice

Hey boyboy, Thanks for always being there for me. Your listening ear is always the solution for my endless rantings (less of that this year I promise!!!). Sometimes I wonder how we ever became friends because you're so nice while I am not. HAHA. I can only say Thank You. Lol.

(Ben Wang and JJ)

Ok, so it's only been a day or two but you guys are really comfort-friends. Like a cup of hot coffee on a cold day, and aircon in the sultry heat, you make me feel comfortable and good. You guys are really fun to be with during the retreat! Have a great 2010!

p.s. how come you guys looked better in the past leh? - i think you all never bathe enough. hehehehe

Samuel Tay

Really glad that I got to know you better. Thanks for being who you are, and for being willing to show it. You are really the best 'travel to church', 'read lit books', and 'SHOPPING!' kaki ever. I think you're my only cell group member (per se) this year. HAHA. Really enjoyed the times with you and how can I forget the intrinsic nonsense embedded within you? Hurhur.

Torrance Tai

SHINCHEE! Hahaha, I think you officially are the one I can least expect to get along with and the one I would be the most irritated with in the face of the world. Simply because we are so different. But then again, we are so alike in so many ways - the strong personalities and all that ~ must be the artists within us. All that aside, thanks for being such a true friend. The unexpected has happened and I am glad about it. As I said, this being rare and all - I love you Shinchee (HAHA, i squirmed a little typing that), you are AWESOME, STEAKSAUCE and LEGEND--wait for it--DARY!

Oh well, to all of you - I LOVE YOUUUUU.

What a long post and I really have more to say, more people to appreciate... But I shall stop before this post dominates the entire page.

HAHA SORRY LAH, HAVEN'T BLOGGED IN 1503745731956107450913567186510751304 YEARS!

Happy New Year, everyone! You may now proceed to pull your ears...

Have an awesome 2010!

2009-12-04T20:16:00.003+08:00

The romantic dinner... by the drain.

Oh well, at least they got Nyonya Manis....

Do these remind you of a certain Leavers' Ceremony x years ago?

Can you see a parallel to savagery? Or perhaps refugees partaking their last meal together?

I swear MSHS is in a state of stasis in terms of the standards of their celebrations.

Oh well, I'm done with the A's! Finally (Yipee!)

And I'm going overseas with tha family in a few hours - so excited! Can't wait man!!

Saints, have fun at prom and from laughing at people play dress-up while I escape from the hot, hot weather!

Till then!

2009-11-30T00:37:00.002+08:00

This was how Adium gave me a shock.

Hi, how's everyone yo.

2009-11-20T09:00:00.003+08:00

Was just visiting my own blog after many days of hiatus.

And I am disgusted.

Really Really Disgusted.

Why? It's largely due to the fact that i've used not one, but FOUR different typefaces in the course of 4-5 posts!

Haha, I am ashamed but I have decided that I like Georgia best.

(Contrary to Tangygoh's belief)

Ima 'stickwitu', Georgia my love.

A Levels have been great. It's not like I believe I will become a straight-A student or anything like that, but it feels good to know that I'm not doing this on my own.

It feels good to finally realise that my life does not depend on this certificate that I'm about to receive. It only makes the road smoother if I do well in it...!

Really, what's an aspiring graphic person/someone who is interested in advertising, etc doing in a JC? And doesn't even take Art! Probably anything remotely close is about the ills of false advertisement ("Subvertising", is it, Jo?) in GP...

I look back and think, "What a joke, Robson."

But it's all ending!!! 2 more papers!

One happening at 2pm later.

And the next 2 weeks later on the 3 Dec!

I pray that this road till the end will be smooth. That God's grace will be with me, like the past few weeks... Till then...

2009-10-31T01:42:00.004+08:00

The book of Proverbs

They say Proverbs is a piece of wisdom literature, written by the wise man, Solomon.

And wise Solomon is wise, not because he read other wisdom literature, nor that he learnt from a great teacher, but because he knows God.

I present my favourite verse from Proverbs, 3

Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him
And He shall direct your paths.

...

Trust and obey,

for there's no other way,

To be happy in Jesus

But to trust and obey.

I trust that I can do ALL things; I will soar on eagles' wings, I will be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath, through Christ who strengthens me.

Friends, if you happen to see this, do say a prayer for me (a silent prayer, or through a call, I'd really appreciate it).

That I will not be weary. I will be strengthened.

I will have His wisdom, and an open heaven above me.

Anointed. Blessed. Filled. Strengthened. Refreshed. Understanding.

That I will Trust and Obey.

2009-10-08T01:46:00.003+08:00

Finally, I see hope in SA Art Students.

Something that veers from the usual navy-white-yellow.

And a near vintage/popart feel to this piece...

Call me a critic, or a sucker for detail (haha) but the tie is not and therefore, should not be striped navy and blue.

Where is the yellow...?

All is well, until the typography (which almost always disappoints)

Verdana (or its variations) on Print? WHY?... And squished at that...

But overall, better than last year's

or the previous years'... I see hope.

The light continues to shine.

2009-10-03T17:29:00.003+08:00

Away from home.

A part of me wants to stay here.

Because it's comfortable.

Familiarity, subsidised education, friends, family.

So predictable, routinal, cyclical. So comfortable.

But another part of me wants to get out.

Even though the tuition fees are many times higher.

And many things uncertain.

Having to deal with insecurities, simply because fundamentally, I am an alien in foreign land.

But the prospects...

The relevant courses, and challenge that forces me to get out of my comfort zone...

I don't know if it's just me and my romanticised views about getting out of the country.

Nor do I know about the quality of education, or how it would affect my future and all the other what-ifs...

But experiencing another culture, and being exposed to a different place excites me.

I don't know how well it'd go but I definitely want to experience it.

---

What a difficult decision.

The Stay side says "All the things you're unhappy about this place, you've endured 18 years - so what's your issue now" but the Go side says "Go to the happy land, even if expectations fail, it's not forever... And when they live up to your expectations, you will be a happier man."

This battle between the 'Go' side of me and the 'Stay' side has been bugging me for a long long time. But I think I've made up my mind. but I don't know yet...

University of Leeds

I really don't want history to repeat itself.

2009-09-21T23:00:00.005+08:00

"No Studying"

This 'No Studying' policy at the above cafe confuses me, for a nong nong time.

Simply because studying in cafes is such a normal thing to do, although it can be irritating when people refuse to leave and planting themselves in the cafe for 24 hours, affecting business yadda yadda.

On the other hand, it is rather flattering that people choose to do that in your 'nice, little, cosy cafe' - isn't that a true testament of the level of comfort that they enjoy to stay there for such long hours just to enjoy the coffee and the comfort to do their work, no?

So I was at this place 'studying', because of that sign, I was very cautious and in the end, decided to type out some of my work and at the same time, do some photo editting while I waited for Mum.

As I was doing my thang, this barista/waitress (yes, they actually wait tables at this particular branch - moving furnitures for the customers... serving drinks if they are not collected... and waiting by the tables - to ensure that people leave once they are done, I guess?) came up to me and pointed this specially printed sign to me and explained the commandment to me.

I told her politely that I wasn't studying, I mean, I was only correcting colors and piecing up photos together and looking less than professional with it (NOT a true story, heh).

Her reply was really shocking - "Oh, we don't encourage our customers to do their work over here, because of the peak hour crowd that we are expecting."

I obliged. But I have to say that their supposed good service is not good enough. In fact, I find it amusing.

Firstly, they said they were "expecting" a "peak hour crowd".

Ok, today was an off-in-lieu -- so by right, it's peak hour every hour. And I was there at 5.30p.m. - by Comfort Cab's standards, it was already 30 minutes into peak hour...

The best part? There were many empty tables around me - I would say the cafe was 60% full only - orders were mainly for takeaway. And I suspect the reason is that the 'comfortable' spots were all taken up. Because the rest were very near the bar counter, where they prepare drinks. Oh, and peer at their customers.

Secondly, the fact that she pointed out the sign when I was not studying really pissed me off man. I mean you only printed "No Studying" but not "No Working", "No Doing Any Sort of Work Here"... I wouldn't mind if you asked me to leave if I was in actual fact, studying, doing my Ten Year Series with my GC or something. But I was NOT. I was on my Mac, minding my own business! In fact, I would say that I was leisurely entertaining myself on the computer!

But all is well... I didn't flare up or anything. Because I understand that they have a business to run and their coffee wasn't that good anyway, so that would have prevented me from making another purchase after I was done with my... drink? I packed up and left, thinking about how ridiculous it was.

Probably that cafe should consider the Long Run impacts of their 'No Studying' policy.

By now, many of us would have already know for a fact that customers no longer just look for a good cuppa in a coffee house. But rather, a package for maximum enjoyment of the experience. Coffee. Music. Friendly staff. Temperature of the airconditioning. Cushioned seats. You know, those things, and that is basically service in a nutshell, meeting the needs of the customer.

And now, my (which shall henceforth be referred to as The Customer's) need was to have some leisure time and do work without disturbance. And they have failed. The Customer's need was to have a good place to sit down and enjoy the place. But it was not met. So basically, the cafe did not fulfill its role, or rather, failed to fulfill its role of providing a service for The Customer.

Furthermore, they are losing their potential to be better, more famous, etc... Imagine the amount of free publicity should there be a budding writer sitting in there doing his/her 'work', but rejected by one of their staff. "Sorry, you have to leave although you are just minding your business, but by doing that you're affecting our business. Sorry."

Look at J.K. Rowling, she spent most of her writing time for the Harry Potter series in a cafe, and acknowledges it in her interviews. Why? Because they did not chase her away because she was taking up space, "obstructing" their business. And although, it has ceased to serve coffee, it has a commemorative plaque installed at its previous site for providing a service to Rowling.

I doubt this cafe will have a plaque for itself soon. Or maybe they can go make one for themselves with all the money earned by chasing customers away so that other people would come swiftly to take over the space - except they do not (only 60% full...)

And the plaque shall read "The famous people came, but we managed to chase them away... And they never came again."

2009-09-15T18:14:00.002+08:00

Today I am puzzled. Bedazzled really.

I love ice cream. I especially love eating from the pint and my beloved 'now-in-the-States' Erica Kleinman posted something that would usually get me very excited.

Starbucks Ice Cream!

But what struck me was the price of the ice cream: US$3.00?!
"Oh maybe it was one of those mini-pints..." I thought but NO, eat your heart out, Robson Tan, It's US$3.00 for a whopping 473ml of ice cream! Coffee flavoured at that!

Then of course my thoughts went wild, "How much does a pint of Ben and Jerry's cost?"
But of course, after what seemed like 50-odd pictures later, it came full circle and hit me in my face...

WAH. And we've been paying $14.00 a pint over here?
And thinking we've got a good deal if some random supermarket sells it at $23.00 for two!
The huge price differences led me to google and then to this blog called "The Grand Moofti Speaks"

Based on August 19 exchange rates Singapore is by far one of the world's most expensive cities to indulge in a pint of quality ice cream.
1. Singapore: 10.28
2. Paris: 9.19
3. Bangkok: 8.76
4. Kuala Lumpur: 8.18
5. London: 6.60
6. New York: 3.32
(Source: Wall Street Journal, 'Arbitrage'. All prices quoted in USD.)

I hope now you have come to realise how expensive our country - small and open economy, which lacks natural resources and have to depend on imports from other countries to survive, really is. For hereon, the Index used to measure the cost of living in a city shall therefore be known as the Pint-of-BNJs Index.

Which is inherently flawed of course, but nonetheless, revelational.
PEACE. Let's go to New York and live off Ice Cream.
Pfft. No wonder Marshall can down pints of Cherry Garcia when he was angry.

2009-09-12T13:02:00.003+08:00

So I was reading this extract from PopEntertainment.com's interview with Josh Radnor, of How I Met Your Mother fame. It sounds very very familiar. Personally, inspiring.

Of course; on the record then, I hope the show continues to do very well. I think it’s fantastic. So anyway, Josh, how did you first get involved in acting?

I just started doing musicals in high school. I got dragged down to… I was actually asked to sit in the audience with a friend of mine who was auditioning. My friend Debbie, she was very nervous to go down there. She said, “Just sit with me. Just sit with me.” I sat there and I watched everyone get up onstage and I thought, jeez, I think I can do better than this guy. (Laughs) So I ended up auditioning and I got one of the leads. I just never looked back. I kept doing it. All through college, I would go away every summer I was at a different theater. Then I went to NYU for grad school. I got out a few years ago and just kept doing it. I wasn’t discovered in the coffee shop. (chuckles) I just kept going.

Man! That audition part was exactly how it was for The Love of Three Oranges! Not like I think I will end up going around acting in theatres and end up in Broadway or anything. But really, a small step is what it takes to reach your destination in life, to fulfill that destiny.

But of course, it'd be nice if I do end up in NYU (or other Universities) doing something that I know I will enjoy doing for the rest of my life. Way to go everyone...

LAST 2 MONTHS.

The Time Traveler's Wife

2009-09-08T01:56:00.005+08:00

The Time Traveler's Wife (2009)

We all know the story. If not, we've heard stories about it.

For me, many commented that the movie was "not as good as (they) expected" and was "boring at some parts" and hence, my own expectations wasn't great.

Any expectations, at all, are illusory anyway, as taught by Charles Dickens...

Ok, so I went to watch this movie alone.

You can say it was due to frustration, or that I was provoked, that I committed the rash act, but yeah, I went to the cinema alone at 9.40pm to catch this movie that I supposedly 'wouldn't like'. How weird...

I thought the show was gonna be a 'sleeper', the kind that lulls you to sleep after 1 hour because you're so tired, and you try so hard to keep your eyes open like you do during certain lectures...

But surprisingly, it wasn't anything like that at all.

Watching the show was a rather smooth one as it didn't require a lot of thinking, it didn't have a lot of outbursts of shouts, screams, timetravelling noises or 'BOOMS' and crash, and I was in the mood for this rather peaceful number. The dashes of sadness that lingered everytime the husband (Bana) 'time travelled' and the rather accurate portrayal of the wife (McAdams) makes this a rather good watch.

I am rather impressed by the actors. McAdams brought it home with her breadth of emotions in the second part of the movie. Especially spectacular (a memorable moment for me) was the scene when the husband informed her that he did "something that [she] wouldn't like" and the mixed emotions of overwhelming sadness, confused with rage and disappointment that she exhibited and with all that, she continued with her stuff. I really liked that.

Like I secretly wished I could act like that.

As I said, I was in the mood.

Moreover, I was alone - no popcorn, no distractions, just focusing on the movie...

What I didn't really like was the ending. It was okay, but a little too cheery for my liking.

It was a good experience all in all, I enjoyed that me-time and the movie... I'll probably start being increasingly anti-social because I rather enjoyed it... Haha

And here's ending off with a memorable quote,

CLARE: "I wouldn't change one second of our life together."

2009-09-06T03:01:00.004+08:00

I am obviously shocked.

I am never going to pick up another phone call.

Nor am I going to place my phone in my pocket anymore.

Edit >>

"My brain is so fried!" --- does it sound familiar to you now?

2009-09-05T15:50:00.004+08:00

Took a long bus ride home yesterday

It was cold. Sort of too cold, well, it's not like how it's supposed to be like,

especially in Singapore, so I was a little shocked.

As the bus made its turns and the bus shook uncontrollably, although it could be controlled, by the driver but still, yeah, uncontrollable by me... I just sat there feeling rather sad with myself, uncontrollably.

Didn't help that this was after a long day, that started the previous night

Chomps - Vick's place - Home - School - Town - Cell Group - Dinner - Bus going home.

But my mind wasn't filled with all those things. It was like I was just going through the motion.

Like how all my inane daily activities of which I just do without thinking just flashes before my eyes.

Well, maybe, just maybe, I am merely going through the motion.

Going through the motion.

Alone.

Oh well, I am probably just tired. Hence the insane rambling.

But oh well, I believe that the rambling finds its roots someplace, somewhere inside of me...

2009-09-03T18:37:00.005+08:00

Hahaha, I love this video.

The direct contrast between that ... boy? and the rest.

His succinct, perfect english peppered with many ERMs when he don't know what to say but

just could not shut up because he has to win that mini-interview-competiton and better than

all his other friends.

The intense look at 0.46 when he was interrupted... a classic, really!

It would say "I have no comments,it is just absolutely utterly beautiful"

*complete with hand actions*

I would also add a series of coy-actions (1.33 - 1.36) because "I am shy", hehehe.

On the other hand, one has to credit this Bryan Chong from ACS.

Did he say he's from Primary 7?

He is very good at the language at such a young age.

Better than many supposed 'adults' that I know.

But still, it doesn't change that I was mildly disgusted while watching the video.

Haha, I sincerely hope that he was just mimicking Barbarella (of The Noose) for good fun,

I mean that's what Primary 5 boys do right?

If not, well then, we have another 'star' to look out and make fun of, since this Bryan person

has appeared on 8Days since the interview and met Michelle Chong in person.

And was promised a show segment or something.

>>> EDIT: Compare the previous video with this one! PHAIL!

2009-09-02T01:27:00.001+08:00

In the midst of my Prelim.

I am very tired.

But not so angsty.

Tomorrow will be a good day! =)

2009-08-13T21:18:00.004+08:00

a brief respite from the hustle and the bustle,
the zooming in and out of information from notes to head which decides if it will stay there.

here, i present to you, the irony that my previous statement establishes.
because i am, in the same way, providing you with some information.
albeit rather useless ones, as i catch my breath.

despite all that, i think i need to rest.
but doesn't seem like i have the time anyway.
i do need to get myself a notebook.
one for drawing and doodling - my idea of a breather,
and another for all that information that needs retaining.
and probably many more for the same purpose since there are just so many things to study for.

(robson, you can do this, you can do this, you can do this, you can do this!!!)
okay, back to reality.

2009-08-02T21:07:00.005+08:00

My church celebrated its 20th Anniversary today.
It was amazing. The spirit of thanksgiving was in the air and it lingered with the closure of the session.
My God is indeed a splendid God -the God who can create wonders and miracles using basically nothing. Much like how a Designer work, heh.

My journey in the church may be comparably short, a mere quarter of the 20 years of its existence.
But here, I see my destiny projected.
Here, I grow and see things in a different light.
Here, I lay the foundation of my life.

Indeed, City Harvest is where Dreams are Realized, Success is Celebrated. I'm looking forward to the realization of my dream and ultimate celebration of my success. I have faith that all these are nearing, and I am anticipating.

"How do you know?" you ask.

"Because my God is able and I have seen it - just look at how far MY church has come =)"

Proud of you, City Harvest Church,

Happy 20th Anniversary, and many more 20s to come!

2009-07-23T22:53:00.004+08:00

Today, I realised that proximity is not the basis for relationship.
Hmmm... I admit I'm rather slow.
Oh well, at least I saw it with clarity and in slow motion.

The closeness you experience with someone is not determined by the physical closeness you share. What appears to be a potential everlasting friendship - is now undermined by the pervasive closeness that one seeks to feel all the time (and I point to you to the many communities/cliques/some-group-bound-by-a-single-spirit-thing in my school as exhibit).

Don't know why I'm in this huge commune where I don't belong, this herd.
And their sheep mentality. Not like I feel like I'm better than them, and higher in my ways.
But I know that this is not an environment that I will thrive in.

84 more days to the end of my time here in SAJC.
I didn't mean to make it sound like I'm serving time in a prison although it does feel like it at times.

Anyhow, I look forward to the end of this, so that I can seek the rainbow at the end of the tunnel.

2009-07-23T01:33:00.003+08:00

The Director Picture.

At the end of the day,

it is the friendships made,

the relationships established,

and the memories, carved in our hearts,

that will remain forever...

Maybe I do like to be on stage, acting.

2009-07-19T02:53:00.002+08:00

Today, I had the best Saturday for many weeks.

Woke up relatively late.

Did some stuff and went back to sleep again.

Went for Erica's celebration. For her farewell as well as a prelude to her birthday.

It was her sis' birthday, too.

So, Happy Birthday Erica and Natasha...

Thereafter we went to Cafe Iguana.

Awesome Nachos and Salsa dip!

Hanging out with these guys and enjoying a little chillout.

Good weekend. Better ones coming. Yes =)

This coming week, gotta study a lot more.

Whew. Church tomorrow.

2009-07-13T22:53:00.005+08:00

Today has been eventful.
Woke up kinda early in the morning...

And I went onto facebook while waiting for HIMYM to load onto my thumdrive,
and typed in the status...

"Today's not so blue... Hahaha, but the color might intensify later..."

and this is how the story unfolds.

Took a cab to school due to the unexpected stomachache.
And the taxi was late for about 2 minutes. Never mind.
There was a jam on CTE. Never mind.
The taxi driver took a wrong turn into Meyappar Chettiar Road (MCR) instead of Potong Pasir Ave 1. Never mind.
Traffic was heavy at MCR. Never mind.
So the taxi driver decided to turn out and enter from Ave 1. Never mind.
Oh how funny the concept of time function! The moment I stepped into school through the main gate, there the rubbish teacher R.Gill stood and caught me for my hair. UGH.

Doesn't help that today was really bleak.

Many hours of break. Mostly back-to-back.
Ate in the cafe, then went up to the library to try and read Herland.
The surprise for Amirah then ensues.
Great cake. Small celebration. Just like how we intended (sans the wine, thank God).
Just as the first slice of cake was in the process of being transferred to the tissue paper...

The door opens.

The librarian steps in and asks, "What are you people doing here?"
No time to hide anything. All of us just kept quiet.
We stared at her. She stared back, hard.
And she sees the cake. Then she went berserk.

"How can you guys bring a cake in here?!"
"Give me your names."
"GO TO THE COUNTER AND WRITE DOWN YOUR NAMES!"

(Really wanted to dash out of the library but decided that it ain't wise.)

At the counter.
Brings out a file with all our mugshots in it.

Amirah, *CIRCLE*
Ilona, *CIRCLE*
Vicky, *CIRCLE*
Robson, *CIRCLE*
Joshua, *CIRCLE*

She screamed at us really loud,
and apparently, the whole library heard it.

We pretended to be guilty, and proceeded to leave the library.
Just before we stepped out, we burst out laughing - louder than all her screams. Oh, the entire library heard that too... (My god...)

Of course, there were more troubles that included a 'very long email' that was supposedly 'powerful' and was CCed to very 'important people' - of which the power of the Email Technology was explained to us by Miss W.

"There is the CC function in the email and the email was CCed to the discipline master, the principal, etc etc..."

What a joke. Ok, I'm supposed to be remorseful.

And I will try hard not to laugh tomorrow.

Oh how eventful.

Things like these makes my heart flutter and my hair shorter (literally). )=

But, what a memorable birthday! AMIBRA! Geeeeee =)

2009-07-11T21:58:00.002+08:00

Me *Laughing at random joke on TV*
Mom "You are just like your uncle, I can't stand it!"
Me "What?!!"
Mom "You both laugh the same way, it really shocks me sometimes."
Me *Laughs more*
Mom "See!"

For her to say that, I guess me and my uncle are quite alike seeing that she babysat him into adulthood.

2009-07-07T20:44:00.005+08:00

Was at Vicky's house, supposed to be studying for Economics.

But ended up doing the 'highly accurate quiz' instead. Heh.

I was quite doubtful of it but it's not everyday that my friend over here claims anything 'accurate'

so I decided to give it a try. But the quiz was so long... 72 questions! But nevertheless, I managed to complete it.

And as I read the analysis, I was shell shocked. It was really highly accurate.

I sat there and went like 'OMG. OMG. OMG. It's so true' many times. Hahaha.

Although some of the predictions like careers and love life were a bit doubtful. Haha.

You can try it too... Click here..

And here are my results.

So this is what it basically means...

Portrait of an ENTP

ENTP's primary interest in life is understanding the world that they live in.

They are constantly absorbing ideas and images about the situations they are presented with in their lives...

... They generally understand things quickly and with great depth. Accordingly, they are quite flexible and adapt well to a wide range of tasks. They are good at almost anything that interests them. ...

ENTPs are idea people. Their perceptive abilities cause them to see possibilities everywhere. They get excited and enthusiastic about their ideas, and are able to spread their enthusiasm to others...

ENTPs are less interested in developing plans of actions or making decisions than they are in generating possibilities and ideas. Following through on the implementation of an idea is usually a chore to the ENTP. For some ENTPs, this results in the habit of never finishing what the start...

The ENTP, who does not naturally consider the more personal or human element in decision making, should take care to notice the subjective, personal side of situations. This is a potential problem for ENTPs. Although their logical abilities lend strength and purpose to the ENTP, they may also isolate them from their feelings and from other people.

Under stress, the ENTP may lose their ability to generate possibilities, and become obsessed with minor details.

Possible Career Paths

Lawyers
Psychologists
Entrepreneurs (!)
Photographers (!)
Consultants (Ad consultant?!! Haha)
Engineers (?!?!)
Scientists (HAHAHA?!?!)
Actors (!)
Sales Representatives
Marketing Personnel
Computer Programmer, Systems Analyst, Computer Specialist (-.-)

Relationships of an ENTP

Goals for relationship - Improvement and growth, as of other personal goals.

Feeling - General enthusiasm and good intentions are usually positive and healthful in a relationship.

Potential Problem - Tendency to not follow through on their schemes. Another problem - ENTP's general tendency towards "wildness" and willingness to take risk can be quite stressful on intimate relationships.

Sexually, the ENTP is enthusiastic and interested in positive, constant growth for both partners. Very attentive, involved and questioning. Spontaneity rather than fixed schedules, and fully embrace new ideas and adventures. They like to approach intimacy as more of a physical act which conveys affection, rather than as an opportunity to explicitly express affection. (Hahaha)

As parents, the ENTP approach it with a fun-loving attitude which has a serious underlying goal - To make everything a learning exercise which promotes the child's growth into an independent and logical thinker.
Might shower them with affections at one moment and neglect them when they get caught up in one of their grand schemes for improving a system somewhere...

As friends, they get along with almost all other types of people.
However they generally lack the ability to sympathise or relate to others who do not see things the same way as the ENTP.

They are likely to choose to surround themselves with people who are intelligent, capable and idea-oriented...

How very true...

Tell me your results on the tag board so that I can give you another link for the analysis!

(Disclaimer! This does not come at the end of the result!) Haha!

2009-07-04T15:37:00.005+08:00

Was looking at a certain school's CCA Facebook Page

and every other photo, or comment has these tags on it...

"Team dinner", "Team BBQ", "Team Photo", "Team Camp", ~~"Team Titans"~~, "United as One", "We will do this together".

UGH.

Enough is enough, seriously!

It is not like I cannot stand people forming teams and getting together in groups because I am a freaking loner in school that I am complaining about this... But this team thing is really lame? Because there are no TOGETHER FOREVER-s in this world.

Take your favourite football clubs or basketball teams or rugby troop (?) for example...

One day you may be playing in a TEAM, as one -cough- but the next moment, before you know it, you meet each other on the field, AGAINST each other. So really, cut that crap man.

Needless to say, whoever may be reading this, are not as good enough as the aforementioned teams/clubs/troop/schoolofdolphins.

It really puzzles me, is it really important to come together in unison and in one?

OK, I do believe that unity is strength, sometimes - but what really irks me is that these 'team-y' people come together and PROCLAIM that they are one, which is not making much of a statement? Nor does it impact other people?

Maybe they are really happy to congregate and proclaim the false declaration of unity in the hopes of getting people like me (and probably my friends who agree) to release that greeneyed monster of jealousy at their makeshift synergy.

It just sounds a lot like bull to me and only reminds me of a certain Solidarity Service of a certain book which happens to be Brave New World and written by the critically acclaimed Aldous Huxley who, put into that context a little episode that maybe disturbing to others and that is Orgy Porgy. (And we, non-Sports4Life people, really don't know what goes on in the locker rooms after your matches...)

Please treasure your individuality before you lose it. No matter how little you are going to amount to in life.

Because at the end of the day, I think I would very much prefer to be known by name (i.e. as say... Sean), rather than "who's-that-in-the-insertsportsofchoice-team", which is just seriously brainless.

So, when you have dinner, just say dinner. Team dinners just don't cut it, unless you feed each other with regurgitated food, transferred from team mate to team mate, because that'd be just lovingly teamly.

P.S. By the way, as a fast fact, that's how animals (oh how apt!) warm up their food to feed their young, mmm... sumptuous!

2009-06-30T13:55:00.002+08:00

The world is in spirals

Every step I take, I fall off the balance.

Vomitting in the middle of the night and getting a diahorrea

isn't how I'm supposed to be studying for my exams...

I hope it's not psychosomatic - if not I'll hate myself.

I would blame the stress. But then again...

Falling sick sucks, huh?

2009-06-24T12:14:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder (a lot) what in the world exactly am I doing with my life.

You see, this was me in Sec 2.

"OMG. Photoshop is cool!!!!"

"OMG. I want to be a graphic designer!"

"OMG. I want to make movies!"

"OMG. I have an idea book! And all my ideas are going in there, hell yeaaaah!!!"

Ok, I don't really use a lot of OMGs. But you get the point.

And this was me in Sec 4.

"OMG. I am going to go to a polytechnic!"

"FSV. MASS COMM. VISUAL COMM... WOOTS!"

"OMG. DPA! I am going to register!"

And before you know it, I am in JC1, attending that lame orientation and going for lessons that will hardly benefit me in the long run. Ok, it's too early to say but yeah.

I regret everything about it and now here I am lamenting about it simply because I see no light at the end of the tunnel.

Everything is so uncertain.

I went to a JC thinking that I can sail through this smoothly, thinking that it gives me more time to choose wisely.

Heck choose wisely. So much for being wise... Ugh, now I can't stand how stupid I was.

No time for regret or sorrows.

Don't get me wrong. School can be fun and at times interesting - but that's only when you make it to be... But now, it's just... UGH!

Some time earlier, during CME lesson, we were asked to write a letter to our future son/daughter and I quoted The Curious Case of Benjamin Button because it spoke to me, but I do not have the courage.

Now, if I wrote a little letter to my future son/daughter, this is how it goes.

"Dear son/daughter, (for this is obligatory. Haha)

... how much I love them and how they should lead their life...

Do not take the easy way out. Because at the end of the day, life will not go easy on you.

Follow your heart, do what you want to do - at the end of the day, the choices and the decisions that you make, will affect your life. Not mine, not mum's. Not anyone else's.

Boldly make the decision - and when you fall, I hope you have the courage to stand up and walk again."

Maybe I should have the courage, to make things right again... ?

2009-06-23T19:51:00.005+08:00

One of my favourite Calvin and Hobbes comic strip...

Watterson is really one talented artist and storyteller.

This one is the last of the racoon series, and a most touching one.

Getting out of Calvin's world, I wonder to how many people will I say

"Don't you go anywhere" to...

or to whom, for that manner.

I have a few in mind, but we'll have to find out...

"... but don't YOU go anywhere!"

2009-06-22T00:58:00.002+08:00

"Today, I found out that I am not the only one in my school who wants to get out of JC really badly, but just don't have the balls to. ~~FML.~~"

A few more months, and you can follow your wildest dreams thereafter. Press on.

Today was weird - it was almost like God holding a "You-Should-Really-Sit-Down-And-Study" Intervention. Was thinking of heading home because everyone went missing after service today and I wanted to enjoy whatever weekend was left. I don't think I would study once I got home?

But lo and behold, I met Samuel at the Pioneer Station bus stop and he seemed determined to hit the books and so we went. Thus, I can now proudly say that I studied today! And still am actually, at 1.07 am.

Yay.

2009-06-19T02:22:00.000+08:00

Cleaned up my MSN account.

Cleared most categories. Haha.

Added a 'Favourites' - Do you think you're in there? Tag and I'll tell ya!

2009-06-18T00:20:00.002+08:00

WARNING! Viewer's Discretion Advised!

Proceed to read at your own discretion...

So TangyGohisAwesome has got me addicted to rubbish videos like these...

Hahaha, it's crazy. I spent about 1 hour watching them today and I LOVE the 'responding to haters' ones... hahaha

O my precious, precious time... for sleeping!

CLASSIC LINE
"Hey, you stupid chink! Go eat fried rice and masturbate to math equations!"

My goodness, WHAT?! That's absolutely disturbing!

Firstly, you CAN'T eat and you know... do that at the same time! Wait, you do? o.O

Secondly, (censored) to math equations? My god, I can imagine all the H2 cohort in my school doing that since they love it that much! Eeeewww! Maybe my classmates, namely Amirah, Ilona, Vicky and Joshua can join them (hehehehehe)

Wahahaha. These videos crack me up BIG time, man! Lol.

By the way - I'm Chinese but coincidentally I hate fried rice AND Math.

Although I do know of some friends who do like the two items mentioned above.... =)

2009-06-16T23:28:00.001+08:00

A good song that speaks to me.

No Such Thing by John Mayer

"Welcome to the real world", she said to me
Condescendingly
Take a seat
Take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding
Up my sleeve

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
That something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
just a lie you've got to rise above

So the good boys and girls take the so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits
Maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you got to rise above

I am invincible (x3)
As long as I'm alive

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

I just can't wait til my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for

2009-06-13T12:25:00.002+08:00

RANDOM...

Looking back, I've always been the kid who don't want to be seen as a kid.

Always trying to outsmart myself, always trying to outsmart others. (Sometimes failing...)

And maybe that's why nowadays, people don't seem to see me as 17.

Sometimes, responsibilities breeds expectations and they chain me down.

"You have a deprived childhood," they say.

Yeah, maybe. And I think I need it back.

We are growing too fast. But we are not mature.

God, help.

2009-06-13T01:27:00.002+08:00

Yes, it was Vicky's 18th

And we had a Void Deck Potluck at Lorong Ah Soo!

It was really ironic, since we were directly opposite Vick's alma mater, PLMGS...

It was like, returning to her roots or something (Well, 10 years in that school makes you... a lesbian, hahaha)...

Haha, probably I should hold my birthday party outside the Gurkha Campsite... Or the Mt Vernon Crementorium, haha, omg. Touch Wood.

Wait, maybe not. Since my birthday falls on the same day as our History Paper 2.

Coincidentally, our first A'level Paper. Meh.

Well, at least, I am looking forward to an awesome birthday 'present' -- What else but my straight As! Haha, one can pray...

CHEERS! To our good healths, better results and an awesome life ahead =)

Thus, we hereby promise ourselves not to do anything we will not like (e.g. teaching, mathsy/sciencey stuff and live life like it owes us)

2009-06-12T02:13:00.003+08:00

O.M.G.

I'm going to the PC Show (Ugh, what an ugly name) tomorrow!

My first step to end my habit of procrastinating - I asked my dad for the money (for a start)

Tomorrow, I am finally going to get my butt down to get a printer since the last one broke down in Jan this year. Which just proves the power of my procrastination, almost 5 months!!

Sometimes I just can't stand myself. Ugh.

Then I'm going to study. (YES Robson, you MUST! Godhahaha...)

I'll probably look at other things (if the crowd isn't that mad...) Like the elusive tablet (at a steal) and... other stuff... Heh.

2009-06-12T00:20:00.003+08:00

Happy day!

And I meant harpie, happiex, whoopie - happy!

For one, I slept for many hours. More hours than any day of the week.

Also, I managed to get out of the house finally after 2000 years.

And, we managed to meet and hang out (after doing some shopping).

I feel happy also because I didn't spend a lot. (Although Cliffton did)

I collected my pants from Zara after 1 week and 2 days and they fit.

We also had Ayam Penyet and Gado Gado.

Me, Cliffton and Sandhya met the ever-bright Erica (who has disappeared from the face of the earth to admin-work and relief-teach at Pasir Ris)... etc etc.

Today was good probably because I felt like a kid again.

Carefree, without much worries (and not getting irritated and pissed off)

It's probably good to seek some sort of therapy with some friends around.

1 or 2, is enough, like today.

Doing rubbish things like not going somewhere, hiding plates, following someone home and sipping on some mango goodness really serves me well today.

Should totally do this again someday.

Happy Birthday, Ilona Erika Chua.

Nice seeing you randomly today =)

2009-06-03T20:24:00.002+08:00

In this world where everyone is trying to be included,

they exclude a lot more as well.

True for you. True for me. Let's not deny it.

2009-06-01T23:18:00.002+08:00

RANDOMPOST

Well, this is the second installment to Life in Courier New.

This time, it's positive

But random. As suggested by the title above.

It all happened with the random Saturday out to City Hall.

I walked the route that was oh-so-familiar during the days of Theatre.

I now see the script sitting on the shelf.

And boy, does it brings back many fond memories!

First rehearsals. The unfamiliarity and it links all the way back to the sessions with Verena. Which were really weird (supine positions, thrusting of hips, working the pelvis). And also rehearsals for the improv performance during the orientation - celebrating the smart kids who entered into JC, where their bright minds begin to dwindle. It is official.

Warmed up to the Drama Kids (as I still fondly call them) better.

ERICA, KUSHI - my co-actors. CHENEY, CLIFFTON - we who slack together.

Among other people who were there in the rehearsals - Oh, AMIRAH ("I smell of love!")

First time on the CC stage - the improv was a success. Because those dimwits laughed at almost everything. Which was funny. But thank God they did.

Subsequent rehearsals. Frustrating. Cheney's role got usurped. I had to work with Tawan. Alot. (I didn't like our mighty o' prince back then). Asking Cliff and Cheney to stay back with me - which they did (Aside "I love you guys"). I guess this is where the friendship started.

Other characters started coming in. Soon, it started to feel like family. Stayed back together. Post-rehearsals Dinners. Spoofs of the drama. Seeing each other almost everyday. It was a bittersweet experience. Hate that you have to stay back. But the time spent together was fun. Struggled with schoolwork, but you were not alone.

The days in theatre were most nostalgic.

Walking amidst City Hall last saturday really brought flashbacks before me.

The Early Mornings in Raffles City.

Yakun Kaya Toast (in that ghastly font) followed by getting coffee orders from Starbucks.

I remember Ms K's order - Coffee of the Day with skimmed milk and two-pumps Caramel. Which really tastes quite bad.

And the long walk past the Padang and the Old Supreme Court, into the Old Parliament where the Arts House lay.

The really cold Play Den. The amazing backstage - complete with a toilet.

It was really home to us for the 5 days we were there.

DAY ONE | Plotting. Rehearsing. Really Bad Day One.

DAY TWO | Plotting, Rehearsing. Full Dress.

DAY THREE | Some adjustments here and there. Bad focus during the rehearsals. A thousand and one mistakes. Opening Night was great.

DAY FOUR | Really lousy Matinee. Got screwed and woke up - The Night Performance was a blast. Best performance yet.

DAY FIVE` | FINAL PERFORMANCE - Less brilliant than the previous night but it was a wrap. Everyone went home happy. (Ok, we went to celebrate...)

Going through this with the rest was really a journey that has come into fruition. We certainly brought smiles onto the faces of those who were present. And for ourselves, for doing things that we have never done before, for venturing new ground and maybe, for conquering another play.

I can't say that I've learnt a lot from this play, apart from a few sporadic additional theatre/stage knowledge. But I had lots of fun and I am thankful of the new friendships forged.

Special mention goes out to CLIFFTON and CHENEY - Thanks for the friendship. Your encouragement and support meant a lot, especially before the first performance. And for accompanying me for the first few rehearsals, for being there when I needed you guys. You guys are really fun to be with - so untypical of your faculty. Thanks ah.

And to TAWAN, haha - I really didn't like you at first. And I believe the feeling was mutual. But bro, I like how you know who you are and that is cool.

ERICA, for being so full of shit and always around. Talking with you is fun. Your going away is really good times cut short - but I believe it will all come back when we have the chance to gather once again. Your courage - going after what you really desire - inspires me! (RESPECT!)

SANDHYA/KUSHI/JANNAH/SAKINAH/ETC - you guys are the life of the party! It's always fun being around you. So loud, so happening. Sandhya, my new study buddy - it's weird how we become friends huh. But yeah, I will treasure each and everyone of you!

AMIRAH/VICKY/ILONA - Hahaha, as usual, I love you guys more than anything. It was you guys who pushed me to go for the auditions that I landed this role in this amazing play with these amazing people. I will never get sick of you - tried and tested - in class, in drama, sometimes almost for 24 hours!

If any of you are reading this, Cast and Crew, I say a heartfelt "THANKS!" to each and everyone of you.

Please say Hi to me even when you see me around school looking fierce and intense. I'm not pissed or anything - just being myself. Haha. As you all know, I am actually not what I seem.

What a long post - The length should represent my love for each and everyone of you. =)

2009-05-30T23:10:00.002+08:00

Did some shopping at Ted Baker today. (Hee Hee Hee...)

Plastered across their paper bag were bold, distressed stripes.

But what was amazing was that little holder over there.

Purpose? To slot in receipts.

Maybe I'm suaku lah, but it was the first time I encountered this, hohoho.

Personally, I feel that the attention to details is crucial. Even more so - intricate, minute ones just show the level of attentiveness.

I think this is what will determine destiny.

In comparison, overlook details and you overlook the potential of your little act of service, product. Hmmm. Something to brush up on, then.

2009-05-30T11:42:00.003+08:00

"I decline because I am not subjected to being run-off-the-mill.

Most of all, I am not second best to your mediocrity."

NOTE TO SELF | Never, ever be mediocre and don't let anyone think that of you.

2009-05-26T21:43:00.003+08:00

Hahaha, Vicky Chen, you know me too well.

But I won't do whatever mean things you imagine to you,

simply because I'm not as evil as you.

Then again,

AM I THAT MUCH OF A PERFECTIONIST?

Everybody thinks that of me. And 2 conversations in just one day,

With Tangy and Vicky - that says a lot.

Hmm.. Self-Reflection (Ms Wong's favourite loser pastime) is needed.

And this,

2009-05-24T22:03:00.001+08:00

And this, is what I want for my birthday (or any other occassion) this year.

I guess I can save a lot on Starbucks after that.

Shiok man.

2009-05-23T22:14:00.002+08:00

And so, it was time to celebrate the success of the play,

or just an excuse to take time off the heavy workload to party,

drink

and have fun.

Wouldn't say it was really fun,

but it did make me know some people better.

And probably a bit of myself.

How low a tolerance I have, I discovered last night.

At this point, I cannot help but laugh.

So upon reaching the suite, I must say I was quite amazed by the suite.

It was a really nice place -

Nice furnishing

Spacious

Complete with a (huge) bathtub in the bathroom.

Changi Beach Resort surpassed all expectations I've had.

So we had dinner

and some drinks

and we watched movie - and the bleakest one ever -

SCARY MOVIE 4 - which was the dumbest, non-scary movie ever.

Being bored, we continued to not do a lot of things,

armed with some scotch, off we go to the poolside,

abandoning the kids with their inane activities.

Good scotch, good company and we talked, quite a bit,

and I am happy with that...

Gosh, I must be getting old -

my preferment for peace and quiet has shocked the youthful self.

Some classic quotes for the night, lol

"You all always whispering one. *Grunt* *Walks away*"

"This is really boring, you guys are damn lame, Wth"

Anyway, morning came and everything looked prettier.

Less grossed out by certain individuals...

Which is good. I am so lazy to continue, so let's just end it at there.

To one and many,

All good things come to an end,

the play has ended

so has the PPP, but this friendship we share,

will not see the end unless you want it to.

So glad for all you people,

Making life a little more tolerable. =D

2009-05-19T23:25:00.002+08:00

It's a wrap

IT'S A WRAP!

This is so overdue, but yeah, we performed for the last time on Sunday.

It was such a relief.

But of course, as with every production, I am growing to be attached to this one.

The acting, the rehearsals, the designing of things, the friendships established...

The days at the Arts House were amazing! And I thank each and everyone for that.

Back to school, workload's getting heavier.

And there is a lot of catching up to do, especially for Lit.

Oh, did I say I miss the Arts House already, I think most of us feel this way...

(except for Cliffton, who misses the farting sessions, hahaha)

Here I pronounce my love for all of you, CAST AND CREW!

2009-05-13T20:53:00.003+08:00

This is my life in Courier New.
For this is the font in 'The Love of Three Oranges'.
Today was hell. It was tiring, boring, and time wasting.

Every moment spent at the Arts House was just 'Argh'.
Rehearsed and rehearsed and rehearsed. Argh.
Drip Scene. Flirt Scene. Orange Scene. Argh.
My God, all the friggin scenes that makes my blood boil. Argh.
Especially when you know it can be so much better but some people just don't friggin get it. Argh.

Then there was Balineseshit music playing in the background.
People talking rubbish so loud that you can hear it.
No space to take a nap. No bags. No handphones. No iPods. Not even our books because our bags are locked up in the other room.

I am vomitting my thoughts out because I am not quite sane at the moment. I have a headache that was caused by the noise generated from some people in Drama (not naming names...) It was unbearable, torturous. It drains my energy just to listen to them. What more, everything after running around spaces and plotting in the theatre.

Dinner was a disaster; the headache got worse,
Took the train and it broke down.
Went home and there was a traffic jam. It was so crowded in AMK.
God, today really is a bad day. At least for me, because the people who yaks and yaks and yaks just don't get it.

And by the end of this entry, I hope you understand why I am so irritated and this is in turn transferred to you, my readers, in the form of this font called Courier New.

P.S. I don't understand why DBS have an iBanking service when it doesn't even WORK! I've been trying for the 3rd time in TWO YEARS! GOOD LORD!~

2009-04-28T22:18:00.002+08:00

Today I discovered several things...

Even Week Tuesdays are a big waste of time.

I appreciate cool thunderstorm-like weather more than hot, humid, gross, sweaty.

Walking in the rain can be therapeutic.

Especially when you're hunting after some KOI drinks.

The food at the underground foodcourt at HDB HUB can be nice.

HIMYM is really enjoyable,

And you know it when four 18-year-olds crowd around the tiny iPhone to watch it.

My school is big on Rugby,

The J1s are big on Rugby even though they clearly do not understand the gameplay.

The Student Council of 2009 (32nd is it?) clearly CMI.

They can't cheer.

They can't hype people up.

And they think they are rendering service to the school.

Drama sucks without the usual people.

It feels good when Drama ends early.

Going back to HIMYM is bliss.

My CT totally sucks.

And my dislike for her now is justified.

2009-04-23T21:26:00.003+08:00

Happiness is...

O Sad Clown! how ironic is thine existence.
For it is you, whose vocation it is to make others glad,
who wears a frown that is oh so sad.
How ironic is the Sad Clown.

Happiness is... living your life to the maximum potential.

Happiness is... spending time with your loved ones.

Happiness is... appreciating the things around you.

Happiness is... following your visions and dreams.

Happiness is... having no one dictate your life.

Happiness is... the ability to accept failures.

Happiness is... fulfilling the resolutions.

Happiness is... believing in yourself.

Happiness is... missing right now.

2009-04-18T07:45:00.002+08:00

Meet Britain's new star

Susan Boyle

You have to watch this video!

It is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!

Watch it first before looking at what I have to say!

Even if it means waiting for it to finish loading for 20 minutes.

Susan Boyle on Britain's Got Talent
by dwarthy

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Told you it's amazing!

Susan Boyle, a 48 year old woman who lives in a collection, a collection of... erm... a collection of.... villages, auditioned for the British talent competition - Britain's Got Talent.

To say the truth, the first time I saw her, she looks quite gross.

With her 'village-mannerisms' and less-than-appealing dressing,

However, she turned out to be a surprise!

I really liked her rendition of the song, gives dreams a new dimension and hope for all of us out there who wants to live a dream.

P.S (A long one)

I hope this will be a lesson to all of us out there,

Do NOT judge a book by its cover - we all know this 'teaching'

yet, how many of us really do practise it?

I try, as much as I can, but at least I try.

Just look at the audience's reactions to "I want to be a professional singer",

I was really outraged by the girl at 01:23

even when I haven't watched the video.

She even spazzed into what she thinks is an eye-rolling action!

I applaud Susan Boyle,

Doing it all-nunly (like Joanna) "May the good Lord bless her soul..."